His day . . .

As I look at the calendar, it appears the end of this school year is looming. But, to be honest, we are in no way close to accomplishing the goals I had set for 5th grade. When my mom got sick last fall, school was interrupted by life, and death, and it feels as though we’ve never really gotten into a good groove since. 
Oh, how we miss her.

Life with an 11-year-old boy with ADHD, who is mourning his Nana, has not been easy lately. My lack of self-discipline in creating a consistent schedule for him is not helping. Neither has visiting 3 homeschool conventions in the past month. I am exhausted, which makes me much less patient with him.

We’re working through some behavior issues that I thought we had mastered a long time ago. Getting a handle on first time obedience, impulsivity and self-control issues seems particularly difficult lately, in light of all that is going on around us. I pray daily for grace, patience, and wisdom in parenting this wonderful gift of a child, as well as forgiveness for failing him so often. 

It’s easy for me to become anxious about it all. Ben will be beginning Middle School (wow, did I just write that out loud?). I feel a measure of extra pressure for some reason. Pressure I told myself I would not allow until High School! And yet it’s there, weighing me down, creating fear and worry, making me want to just pull the covers over my head.

Matthew 6:25-27 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 


Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. 


Matthew 11:28-30 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

For a reason completely unrelated, a sweet friend sent these scriptures to me this week, and I found them just perfect. I needed to read them. I need to meditate upon the TRUTH found in them. I so love the image they create in my heart’s mind, of Jesus taking all of the burdens of the past few months — my mom’s death, our lagging behind in schooling, Ben’s behavior issues, my worries about the future — upon Himself and giving me rest. I can just curl up in his big, strong lap, listen to his heartbeat, feel his loving arms surround me, knowing that he will fill in the gaps for Ben, comfort us in our sorrow, and lead us into the future with assurance. What a beautiful image of a loving God.
So, for today, I will just ponder that.

This is the day that the LORD has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it.